Wednesday, November 4, 2009 ; 1:50 PM♥
wee. finally the dark clouds disappear. . the two hot headed finally cooled down.
he told me quarrels always got good things come out from the mouth de. lol. cute eh.
yar. we understand each other more. and love each other more ~
im gonna go through this hard period with YOU.
im glad. . things are turning better. . . . ((:
feeling appreciated. . ((:
SO LOOKING FORWARD TO NEXT WED!
♥he told me quarrels always got good things come out from the mouth de. lol. cute eh.
yar. we understand each other more. and love each other more ~
im gonna go through this hard period with YOU.
im glad. . things are turning better. . . . ((:
feeling appreciated. . ((:
SO LOOKING FORWARD TO NEXT WED!
Monday, November 2, 2009 ; 6:53 PM♥
gosh. it has been raining since afternoon. . switched my drowsy mood on.
i'm on mc today. the fact that i woke up with a really bad headache, and slight fever.
yes. im feeling better after medication. but that feeling sucks. . like a damn bad hangover. .
i just woke up from my nap not long ago, ate dinner not long ago. . . but i think the flu med has just taken effect. . i feeling kinda seh seh. . . abit like . . very dizzy n feel like puking. .
doctor asked me a funny question. r u pregnant ? there he goes again. . thou its a different doc from the last time i saw. . y always ask me the same qns ?
actually im very SILLY. . i wished i was pregnant. i wantED to have a family of my own soon. . i wantED to have my own home. . probably because of my family background. . u wouldnt know how much i envy people whose parents are there for them. . haha. den ppl will tell me "but u're still young" seriously i dun mind. . .
but what's the point of saying these now ? haha. i doubt its gonna happen to me anyways. i always spoil my own relationships. . orbi good.
one day passed just like dat. but the agony somehow didnt lessen @ all. . had a very bad nightmare during my nap in the afternoon. . still can rmb the words that he shouted on me. . everything. . . hais. orbi good. i brought these all upon myself. .
i brought strain to this relationship. now my dreams are shattered. maybe i really put in too much hope already. . i dunno how to face him anymore. . needless to say to talk to him or text him. . thou i did text him today to tell him i aint feeling well and stuffs like dat. . but the feeling's different alrdy. .
我好害怕… 真希望睡了就永远不要醒来。。 已没有什么东西值得我期待的。。 只希望时间能够倒转。。 我真的好恨我自己！！
♥i'm on mc today. the fact that i woke up with a really bad headache, and slight fever.
yes. im feeling better after medication. but that feeling sucks. . like a damn bad hangover. .
i just woke up from my nap not long ago, ate dinner not long ago. . . but i think the flu med has just taken effect. . i feeling kinda seh seh. . . abit like . . very dizzy n feel like puking. .
doctor asked me a funny question. r u pregnant ? there he goes again. . thou its a different doc from the last time i saw. . y always ask me the same qns ?
actually im very SILLY. . i wished i was pregnant. i wantED to have a family of my own soon. . i wantED to have my own home. . probably because of my family background. . u wouldnt know how much i envy people whose parents are there for them. . haha. den ppl will tell me "but u're still young" seriously i dun mind. . .
but what's the point of saying these now ? haha. i doubt its gonna happen to me anyways. i always spoil my own relationships. . orbi good.
one day passed just like dat. but the agony somehow didnt lessen @ all. . had a very bad nightmare during my nap in the afternoon. . still can rmb the words that he shouted on me. . everything. . . hais. orbi good. i brought these all upon myself. .
i brought strain to this relationship. now my dreams are shattered. maybe i really put in too much hope already. . i dunno how to face him anymore. . needless to say to talk to him or text him. . thou i did text him today to tell him i aint feeling well and stuffs like dat. . but the feeling's different alrdy. .
我好害怕… 真希望睡了就永远不要醒来。。 已没有什么东西值得我期待的。。 只希望时间能够倒转。。 我真的好恨我自己！！
; 1:03 AM♥
darn. yes i know its been a month or so since i updated my blog.
but right now. i really have to blog down my thots. . if not im gonna breakdown soon. .no, i am already breaking down. . cant sleep @ all. . hate this feeling u know. u are damn TIRED, but u cant get to sleep. .
the last time i had this kind of feeling was when i know the truth about mum having another guy.
yes. the tears-session lasted me for about 3 days. .
maybe i got stronger already. im not crying that badly anymore. . but still the heart aches that badly.. my tears just wouldnt flow. i wish it had. something like. . taking a knife & piercing it into ur heart.
yes. i screwed up everything. i admit im the WORST girlfriend in the world..
i aint supportive in the right way. i do things without bearing consequences. i let ppl detest me.
all these thing wasnt what i wanted in the very first place.
nagging @ him when i know he was tired. being late for dates everytime when i know he detest late-comers. complain to him bout his family when i know his family is his priority.
HAHA. Laugh @ me. im the world biggest fool right. . go ahead. . .
instead of helping him to clear the load of his mind. what did i do. nag @ him, quarrel . . to make things worse, i keep on triggering him . . just like purposely provoke a wild bore.
i wanted to help him so much. . when i came to know about his problems. i offered him what i could do. . but still i felt damn helpless. he said its not my problem . . its his own problem and he'll settle it on his own. . but im his girlfriend. to me, his problem is mine & vice versa.
CINDY. where are you ? i hope u r here man! aww.
but seriously speaking . . . i feel we both really lack of communications. i tried to talk to him, STUPIDLY. by asking stupid questions. . so its my fault. . but if i don't probe anything, he wouldnt come n talk to me. . . i really feel DAMN NEGLECTED.
fuck. i really don't know. . tml's closing. the last closing im gonna have in this company.
AND I BET. ITS GONNA BE A BAD WEEK FOR ME.
im gonna hide inside my tortoise shell.
i HATE myself.
♥but right now. i really have to blog down my thots. . if not im gonna breakdown soon. .no, i am already breaking down. . cant sleep @ all. . hate this feeling u know. u are damn TIRED, but u cant get to sleep. .
the last time i had this kind of feeling was when i know the truth about mum having another guy.
yes. the tears-session lasted me for about 3 days. .
maybe i got stronger already. im not crying that badly anymore. . but still the heart aches that badly.. my tears just wouldnt flow. i wish it had. something like. . taking a knife & piercing it into ur heart.
yes. i screwed up everything. i admit im the WORST girlfriend in the world..
i aint supportive in the right way. i do things without bearing consequences. i let ppl detest me.
all these thing wasnt what i wanted in the very first place.
nagging @ him when i know he was tired. being late for dates everytime when i know he detest late-comers. complain to him bout his family when i know his family is his priority.
HAHA. Laugh @ me. im the world biggest fool right. . go ahead. . .
instead of helping him to clear the load of his mind. what did i do. nag @ him, quarrel . . to make things worse, i keep on triggering him . . just like purposely provoke a wild bore.
i wanted to help him so much. . when i came to know about his problems. i offered him what i could do. . but still i felt damn helpless. he said its not my problem . . its his own problem and he'll settle it on his own. . but im his girlfriend. to me, his problem is mine & vice versa.
CINDY. where are you ? i hope u r here man! aww.
but seriously speaking . . . i feel we both really lack of communications. i tried to talk to him, STUPIDLY. by asking stupid questions. . so its my fault. . but if i don't probe anything, he wouldnt come n talk to me. . . i really feel DAMN NEGLECTED.
fuck. i really don't know. . tml's closing. the last closing im gonna have in this company.
AND I BET. ITS GONNA BE A BAD WEEK FOR ME.
im gonna hide inside my tortoise shell.
i HATE myself.
Labels: i'm the WORST girlfriend EVER
Thursday, September 3, 2009 ; 10:27 AM♥
***SSSSCCCCCCCRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAMMMMMSSSSSSS***
everything at work is so haywired..
was on mc on tues. woke up in the middle of the night to vomit THREE times. biangz. lau sai in the morning.
actually doc gave me 2 days mc. and in the end. i only take 1 day. couldnt get enough rest at home. my cousins were making noise, and was so worried about my closing...
closing still not even 50% done yet. sigh. think hafta come back this weekend already.
fuck the system . they alrdy know this system cocked up, still wanna use, and dun wanna extend my closing dateline. wth~
yesterday i came across this cute taxi driver on my way home. . wahaha. ok. i say he's cute no becos im interested in him or anything ok. but the way this 60plus year old man talks jus amused me alot. ENLIGHTENED ME SO MUCH!
he say must be HAPPY. dun always get angry. . . must release the anger inside me. . if not in the long term loads of health problems will pile up. . dun make my heart always do ot. . . lol. so how to be HAPPY nehs? u should keep ur mind POSITVE. for e.g. dun think of the negative things. if its work, u have to do it, den jus do it happily. if u keep on thinking of the uneccessary stuffs, then of course, your mind wouldnt FOCUS. .
uncle tan also taught me a few things about relationship. RESPECT, UNDERSTANDING and TRUST.
to respect means to uphold his/her status.
to understand means to know what he/she wants, what are his/her patterns.
for e.g, his wife always ask him to drop her @ the market to buy some stuffs for a short while, but he knw his wife's pattern is those kind say a while means will take a long time to buy the stuffs. so he will wait however long she took.
of course. all these includes one impt factor as well. COMMUNICATIONS!!
haha. im so enlighted by uncle tan ~ thanks uncle tan. i feel better after listening to u.
♥everything at work is so haywired..
was on mc on tues. woke up in the middle of the night to vomit THREE times. biangz. lau sai in the morning.
actually doc gave me 2 days mc. and in the end. i only take 1 day. couldnt get enough rest at home. my cousins were making noise, and was so worried about my closing...
closing still not even 50% done yet. sigh. think hafta come back this weekend already.
fuck the system . they alrdy know this system cocked up, still wanna use, and dun wanna extend my closing dateline. wth~
yesterday i came across this cute taxi driver on my way home. . wahaha. ok. i say he's cute no becos im interested in him or anything ok. but the way this 60plus year old man talks jus amused me alot. ENLIGHTENED ME SO MUCH!
he say must be HAPPY. dun always get angry. . . must release the anger inside me. . if not in the long term loads of health problems will pile up. . dun make my heart always do ot. . . lol. so how to be HAPPY nehs? u should keep ur mind POSITVE. for e.g. dun think of the negative things. if its work, u have to do it, den jus do it happily. if u keep on thinking of the uneccessary stuffs, then of course, your mind wouldnt FOCUS. .
uncle tan also taught me a few things about relationship. RESPECT, UNDERSTANDING and TRUST.
to respect means to uphold his/her status.
to understand means to know what he/she wants, what are his/her patterns.
for e.g, his wife always ask him to drop her @ the market to buy some stuffs for a short while, but he knw his wife's pattern is those kind say a while means will take a long time to buy the stuffs. so he will wait however long she took.
of course. all these includes one impt factor as well. COMMUNICATIONS!!
haha. im so enlighted by uncle tan ~ thanks uncle tan. i feel better after listening to u.
Labels: LIVE to WORK; WORK to LIVE
Monday, August 31, 2009 ; 1:22 PM♥
yeaa. lunch time. . but i seem to have not completed anything yet. whole morning the system keep hanging! even though i aint touching it.
blardee hell. i dunno how to deal with my closing already. ARGHHHH. pek chek.
YEAH! today no need to go outlet do stock take already. becos kat is on half day leave ~ lalalala~
but still need to do for central kitchen. . :(( hate going in to the big big freezer. . . super cold. . brrrr. 忽冷忽热~ will get sick de. .
whole week confirm plus chop got ot~ dunno when den can complete this month's closing. .
老天爷保佑我~~
♥blardee hell. i dunno how to deal with my closing already. ARGHHHH. pek chek.
YEAH! today no need to go outlet do stock take already. becos kat is on half day leave ~ lalalala~
but still need to do for central kitchen. . :(( hate going in to the big big freezer. . . super cold. . brrrr. 忽冷忽热~ will get sick de. .
whole week confirm plus chop got ot~ dunno when den can complete this month's closing. .
老天爷保佑我~~
Labels: LIVE to WORK, WORK to LIVE
Sunday, August 30, 2009 ; 11:20 PM♥
howdyyyyyyyyyyy. today is a happy day ~
hohohohoho. went to jb with deariee, robert, jack and his gf.
kinda surprised that dear will go ! seriously. becos i felt he was rather anti-jb. . but today he went ~ woo. . ((: 好开心！！
FRI after work i had dinner with him at tpy. . thereafter we made plans to watch final destination @ tampines mall. so we went home to take my clothes, headed to tampines mall and stayed overnight @ his house.
the movie soso la. i give him 2.5 popcorns. not up to expectations. =.=
SAT morning i went to work, den went back to his house @ ard 5pm. . asked robert out to have dinner @ bedok interchange. the 3 of us crack our brains so hard about where to go. . darn sians. -.- couldnt come with a conclusion, instead they decided going to jb today. lol. we ended up @ bedok lkp-ing with gavin and his bro.
den reach dear's house i started playing maple on his com. lol. went to create a new char. fun! i think i got hooked to it. now having cravings for maple alrdy. rawr.
TODAY we went to jusco bukit indah, suggested by jack. he said that the shopping mall very big. . ya. indeed very big! there got dorothy perkins and m.a.c. only these 2 shops tempted me. budden still, nth attracted me la. as usual. cos im penniless alrdy. lol. and the price compare to sgp is almost the same. had lunch at vivo, western concept, pizza pasta..
after window shopping for almost 2 hours, went to holiday plaza .. robert wanted to go there to buy his barang barang.. i bought a bag there !! hoho. finally found a bag i like after so long. and YA. its smaller compared to the one im carrying now~ ((: lovess.
den dinner time. . 煮炒~ so-so only. . hee. . 吃饱后就 time to go home le ~ heng no jam! ((:
woot. so tired . okie. i need to slp liaos.
CLOSING PERIOD next week. die la. stupid new system always cock up one. zz
tml still need to go stock take. . .
shack.
dun dare to think.
good nites.
Labels: DID NOT live my weekend in vain
Wednesday, August 26, 2009 ; 3:39 PM♥
yes.. im blogging secretively @ work. haha. the madames have gone for a meeting. . . :x
but i got work de okay. . jus practising my multi-tasking skills! Laughs.
cham. so many invoices. dunno can key finish by next friday not. :((
so fast closing liaos. . ahh..
today mei nv go sch, she got headache. .
well well. . im kinda excited. i booked bbq pits @ ecp for my bday this year. . .
wanted chalet de. but too late to book it. and its quite costly. shall postpone to my 21st then. haha.
i've sent out the invitations by sms alrdy. now waiting for replys. . . ((:
hopefully will get good news ~ ~~~
♥but i got work de okay. . jus practising my multi-tasking skills! Laughs.
cham. so many invoices. dunno can key finish by next friday not. :((
so fast closing liaos. . ahh..
today mei nv go sch, she got headache. .
well well. . im kinda excited. i booked bbq pits @ ecp for my bday this year. . .
wanted chalet de. but too late to book it. and its quite costly. shall postpone to my 21st then. haha.
i've sent out the invitations by sms alrdy. now waiting for replys. . . ((:
hopefully will get good news ~ ~~~
